hello, haven’t really been on here in a while. just thought I’d let anyone who wants to know what’s going on. i’ve been going to school for the past year at Seattle U for film studies. this quarter i’ve really struggled and would be surprised if I made it through with a passing grade in any of my classes. i have two finals tomorrow, both of which i feel very unprepared for. i’ve attempted to study but lose focus very quickly. i’ve lost interest completely in school and now am unsure what i want to do as far as continuing my education. for now i’m going to take a break from school and get a job at a movie theater. i’m also going to start going to a new therapist. i went to a therapist for about a year but don’t think he really helped me that much. i’ve been struggling with depression and lots and lots of anxiety. been going back and forth between freaking out about everything and then just not caring. i’ve also been smoking weed everyday and smoking cigarettes. basically been feeling like my life is falling apart. the only real thing that’s gave me any happiness is my beautiful, lovely, supportive girlfriend, Hollie. hopefully some good therapy helps but i am not too hopeful. i really just want to be sure about my life again but everything has been up in the air for quite a while. anyway if you’ve gotten this far thanks for reading. hope you’re all doing okay.
That country where it is always turning late in the year. That country where the hills are fog and the rivers are mist; where noons go quickly, dusks and twilights linger, and midnights stay. That country composed in the main of cellars, sub-cellars, coalbins, closets, attics, and pantries faced away from the sun. That country whose people are autumn people, thinking only autumn thoughts. Whose people passing at night on the empty walks sound like rain.
Ray Bradbury, The October Country (via larmoyante)